sjar Chapter 375: Nanxi's idea of succession is beginning to emerge
Chapter 375: Nanxi's idea of succession is beginning to emerge
After returning, Shi Nanxi remained silent. Nanny Yang walked behind her and gently massaged the empress's temples with her fingertips.
Shi Nanxi felt that her swollen temples were much more comfortable. She changed her posture, supported her forehead, and closed her eyes to rest.
After a while, Nanny Yang suddenly spoke softly:
"My lady, your choice is right."
Hearing this, Shi Nanxi did not open her eyes. She said in an emotionless voice:
"Oh, you think that's right?"
Nanny Yang did not answer directly, but instead talked about the confusion hidden in her heart.
"In fact, I was a little confused about why Your Majesty didn't want to have a child. I didn't say anything because I believed Your Majesty had her own intentions. Now I suddenly understand one thing. Your Majesty is not unwilling to have a child, but she wants to protect the future child."
At this point, she returned to the original topic:
"Parents who love their children will plan for them in the long run, so I say your choice is right."
Everything has two sides, and the emperor's love is the same. Before, she only saw the glorious side of the empress, but forgot the danger hidden underneath. The previous emperor's Dong Efei was a living example.
Fortunately, the queen was smart and insightful, and did not have that kind of ambition. She chose not to have children from the beginning, and personally cut off that path for herself.
She is truly resolute and decisive. No wonder the Emperor loves her more and more. Who could not love such a queen!
Shi Nanxi raised the corner of her mouth, opened her eyes, and said with a smile:
"Mammy, you think too highly of me. I just feel that life is short and I just want to relax every day, read a book, eat delicious food, and take Xixi out for a walk in the sun."
In her previous life, it felt like someone was chasing her with a whip every day. In this life, she had finally struggled to become a royal concubine, so of course she had to enjoy herself.
She didn't want to get involved in the fight for the throne again. It was so tiring. Besides, she believed that Kangxi would give her the so-called rewards as long as she wanted them.
As for thinking long-term for future children, that is partly the reason, but it is more for myself.
Shi Nanxi spoke out her thoughts frankly, and finally said:
"So even if I have a child in the future, I am still the most important person in my heart. I am not only the mother of that child, but also myself."
Such selfish thinking seemed incredible and even heretical to the ancients. How could a mother not love her own children?
But who stipulated that she was born to be the mother of a certain child, to revolve around him all her life, to be happy for him, to worry about him, and to devote her whole life to him? She is just her, Shi Nanxi.
Nanny Yang was shocked, but after she came to her senses and thought about what the Empress had said, she inexplicably felt that there was some truth in it.
Although she had never been a mother, she had seen so many concubines in the palace for decades, including her own mother in her childhood.
Once they have children, they revolve around their children, as if their children are the only thing in their lives, and they have long forgotten what they were like in their original state.
But like the Empress said, who says women should be like this? This is their life!
Hongying was also deeply shocked. She opened her mouth wide and stammered:
"But...but isn't that the case with everyone?"
She didn't know what was wrong, she just felt that it was different from the secular world.
"If a mother loves her children, her children will treat her well and she will not be lonely when she grows old. This is the case for everyone!"
Shi Nanxi propped up her chin, looked at Hongying and said with a smile:
"I didn't say I don't love my child. Once the child is born, I will be responsible for him, but he has his own life to live, and I have my own life too. You just need to remember one thing: be good to yourself and love yourself. If you don't even love yourself, how can you expect others to love you?"
Hongying seemed to understand what she heard, but Nanny Yang was deeply touched.
Originally, she stayed in the palace because of the unjust death of her family members. She never married and became a dignified head nanny, which seemed to be quite glorious.
But sometimes I see other people have husbands and children, and when they get home from work someone pours them a cup of hot water, but when I get home there is no one there, and no one even knows when I’m sick.
She knew that there were people who pitied her, sympathized with her, and even mocked her behind her back. She pretended not to care, but sometimes those words would still inadvertently enter her heart.
Now, after hearing what the Empress said, she suddenly felt enlightened, as if the sun had torn apart the dark clouds that had been covering her.
She had no husband, so she didn't have to face any trouble from her parents-in-law, nor did she have to deal with her husband's concubines and illegitimate children. She had no children, so she didn't have to worry about getting fat and ugly due to difficult childbirth. When she went back from work, because of the Empress, she had a little palace maid to serve her.
The little palace maid would pour hot water for her and wash her feet, and would call the imperial physician immediately if she was sick.
To be honest, she was not qualified to call an imperial physician, but her mother was the most important person in the harem, and as the empress's confidant, it was no problem for her to hire an imperial physician.
She now feels that her life is very comfortable. When an old friend met her a few days ago, he said that she looked several years younger than before and he was very envious of her.
Nanny Yang realized that what the queen said was right. Why did she want a husband and children? She should be good to herself and love herself.
"The Queen is right, Hongying, you must remember her words, and you will definitely benefit a lot from them in the future."
Hongying nodded heavily and planted a small seed in her heart, waiting for it to sprout.
Shi Nanxi looked at the two of them, propped up her chin, and burst out laughing.
"It seems that I am very good at speaking. Look how I fooled you two."
"Your Majesty, are you trying to trick me?" Hongying was immediately in disbelief.
Nanny Yang looked at the queen's interested eyes and said helplessly:
"Hongying, the queen is teasing you."
"Well, the queen is so bad." Hongying blushed and stamped her feet.
The master and his two servants played around for a while before Nanny Yang got back to business.
"My queen, even if you have no intention of getting involved in some things, you can't help but be interested. The Eighth Prince is an example today. You still have to be more careful."
Shi Nanxi stopped smiling.
"I know that no one would be willing to give up the wealth of the royal family. For example, after the crown prince passed away the fourth prince, there was a ninth prince. The ninth prince had a good relationship with the tenth prince. The eldest prince had the title of the eldest son. The third prince was talented and well-known among the literati. The fourth prince..."
She paused:
"The Fourth Prince is isolated and helpless, and is also oppressed by the Crown Prince, but he also has the Thirteenth Prince behind him. The Fifth Prince was raised by the Empress Dowager, so he is not interested, but he is a brother of the Ninth Prince and the Eleventh Prince. The Seventh Prince is not to be mentioned, but the Eighth Prince has already made plans at a young age. The Fourteenth Prince is still young, but he has already gained a reputation for being smart and brave."
Shi Nanxi sighed and said:
"The emperor's princes are all smart, hardworking, and capable, but it is precisely because of this that they are unwilling to submit to each other."
Nanny Yang also nodded, and continued to massage the Empress's temples while lowering her voice and saying:
"I heard that some people in the court have started to take sides. The emperor had a tantrum at the court this morning. I heard that even the crown prince was reprimanded."
Shi Nanxi paused. It was only the 31st year of Emperor Kangxi's reign, and were there already signs of a fight for the throne in the court?
She pursed her lips and suddenly sat up straight:
"Go to the Qianqing Palace." Comfort the old man.