sjar Chapter 139: Carrying the Charge
Chapter 139: Carrying the Charge
Qin Ziyan had asked Old Lady Qin about his mother before.
Although Old Lady Qin doted on Qin Ziyan at that time, she acted out of character regarding this matter and sternly forbade him to ask anything about the Shen family.
After that, Qin Ziyan never dared to mention Shen in front of Old Lady Qin again.
Today, grandma took the initiative to mention her mother. What does this mean?
Qin Ziyan didn't know what to say, so he could only wait in silence for Old Lady Qin's next words.
Qin Zimu's face turned pale at this moment. He bit his lip and twisted the corners of his clothes unconsciously with his hands.
Shen died of illness not long after Qin Zimu was born.
In the past, with Qin Huaisheng's protection, Qin Zimu had never suffered any hardship.
After Qin Huaizheng got into trouble, rumors spread in the village and some people called him their nemesis behind his back.
It is said that he first killed his mother and then his father.
Even Qin Ziyan had cursed him like this behind his back when he was a jerk in the past.
Since then, Qin Zimu gradually became less talkative and slowly became a stutterer.
Even he himself gradually came to believe that he was the one who killed his father and mother, so he was always careful to please everyone in his family, feeling inferior and self-blaming.
It was not until Qin Ruo arrived that he slowly walked out of the shadow of the past.
Now that Old Lady Qin mentioned it again, those past scenes reappeared in his mind.
Qin Zimu's eyes suddenly turned red and he became dazed.
Old Mrs. Qin was still immersed in the past, and Qin Ziyan had something on his mind, so neither of them noticed that Qin Zimu was acting strangely.
"Erlang, it's none of your business!" Qin Zimu was sitting next to Qin Ruo, and she was the first to notice Qin Zimu's condition.
Qin Ruo's voice was firm and powerful. When Qin Zimu raised his head, what caught his eyes was Qin Ruo's affirmative look.
"Really...really?" Qin Zimu held back his tears and looked at Qin Ruo unconfidently.
He knew what sister was referring to. His mother and father passed away one after another. Was it really nothing to do with him?
Qin Zimu had been scolded as his nemesis for so many years, but this was the first time someone told him so confidently that his mother's death had nothing to do with him.
Old Lady Qin and Qin Ziyan came back to their senses and looked at Qin Zimu and Qin Ruo with confused faces, not knowing what the siblings were talking about.
Qin Ruo didn't look at Old Lady Qin and Qin Ziyan, but patted Qin Zimu's head and nodded seriously again.
"Erlang, believe me, you have never been a nemesis. You are the best thought that mother left in this world, and as for father, he was just unlucky. You don't have to blame yourself, and you don't have to be so harsh on yourself."
Qin Ruo's voice was gentle, and her eyes showed a power that made people trust her.
A warm current surged from the bottom of Qin Zimu's heart, and he whispered to Qin Ruo: "Sister, thank you."
Old Mrs. Qin turned her gaze away from Qin Zimu, with a hint of guilt in her eyes.
She knew that she had wronged her Erlang over the years, but she couldn't say anything because of the secret. All she could do was to fight to the death when she heard someone say that Qin Zimu was a nemesis.
But even though she could cover one person's mouth, she couldn't stop the rumors from spreading, and she had no way of controlling it.
In the end, I just gave up and thought about telling Qin Zimu the truth when he grew up.
Hearing Qin Ruo's words of comfort to Qin Zimu, Old Lady Qin felt a pang of pain in her heart. She felt that she owed Qin Zimu too much.
Qin Ziyan also remembered the nonsense he had said behind his grandmother's back, and felt extremely sad.
He stood up and walked to Qin Zimu, holding his hand tightly.
"Erlang, I'm sorry. It was my elder brother who was a jerk in the past and said a lot of hurtful things to you. Sister is right, you are not a nemesis and never have been. Can you forgive my elder brother?"
That was the first time Qin Ziyan formally apologized to his younger brother. After he said those words, he realized that saying "I'm sorry" was not that difficult.
When Old Lady Qin fell ill, although the relationship between him and Qin Zimu improved somewhat, there was still a gap between them.
After arriving in Taihe County, Qin Zimu was respectful to him, but not close enough.
In just three years, he did a lot of things to hurt Qin Zimu, and he didn't even know where to start to apologize.
Qin Ziyan was well-versed in the books of sages, so he knew that his parents' death could not be blamed on his own brother.
But at that time he was spoiled by Old Lady Qin to the point of being lawless, and he would use this as an excuse to vent his inner emotions whenever he felt dissatisfied.
Qin Zimu pulled his hand away. He had never had such intimate physical contact with his elder brother.
He felt particularly awkward and uncomfortable at this moment.
Qin Zimu lowered his head and did not respond to Qin Ziyan's words.
"Erlang, you don't owe anyone anything. Remember, from today onwards, hold your head high and be a man." Qin Ruo did not persuade Qin Zimu to accept Qin Ziyan's apology.
There is cause and effect in this world, and the scars of past hurt cannot be erased by a simple "I'm sorry".
Qin Zimu has to resolve his knot on his own.
After Qin Ruo came through, a series of events happened and the villagers began to fear the Qin family. No one mentioned the nickname "Qin Zimu's nemesis" anymore.
She had never had a face-to-face conversation with Qin Zimu, firstly because she had only been here for a short time, and secondly because she had not found a suitable opportunity.
After seeing Qin Zimu's reaction today, Qin Ruo realized that this incident had a significant impact on the child.
Qin Ziyan looked at his empty hands, then at Qin Zimu's evasive movements and eyes, and felt depressed.
"Hmph! Do you think that all your apologies can be exchanged for "it doesn't matter"? If apologies are useful, what do we need the police...and the government for?" Qin Tiaotiao rolled his eyes at Qin Ziyan, and his eyes were about to roll up to the sky.
During this period, he and Qin Zimu became quite familiar with each other and they got along very well.
As for Qin Ziyan, although there was no direct conflict, he always disliked him.
When he saw Qin Ziyan come out to apologize, he couldn't help but say a few words to speak up for Qin Jia Erlang.
"I know……"
Qin Ziyan was silent for a while, first responded to Qin Tiaotiao's words, then turned to Qin Zimu and said sincerely: "Erlang, I will slowly prove to you in the future that big brother really knows he is wrong."
During the time that Old Lady Qin lived in Taihe County, she also got to know Qin Tiaotiao's personality.
Qin Tiaotiao is a fearless kid who is even more difficult to serve than Qin Ruo.
She didn't blame Qin Tiaotiao for humiliating Qin Ziyan. After all, what Qin Tiaotiao said was true. Moreover, the other party spoke up for Erlang and said a few words about Dalang.
"No matter how many mistakes you make, they are all my fault. I lived a foolish life in the past and almost ruined the entire Qin family. I won't do that again in the future. Erlang, can you give grandma a chance to make it up to me?" Old Mrs. Qin took a deep breath, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes.
Qin Zimu felt even more uncomfortable at this moment. He didn't know where to look for a moment, so he looked to Qin Ruo for help.
"Alright, alright! Stop pushing Erlang. Let him take it easy. Let's get down to business. If we keep talking about this, it will be dawn soon."
Qin Ruo had an expressionless face. She interrupted Old Lady Qin and came to the rescue of Qin Zimu.
How come we're holding a self-criticism meeting in the middle of a conversation?