Demon Lord 3

Chapter 1866: For others or for oneself?

After a few days, my condition was getting better and better. Zhou Chuyuan asked me if I wanted to go out for a walk. I nodded. I felt better these days and I was willing to go out for a walk. When we walked outside, I asked him a question out of curiosity: What do you think is more important, doing things for others or for yourself? After hearing this question, Zhou Chuyuan was stunned. Then he thought for a while and said, "From my own point of view, selfish people may choose to do things for themselves, but selfless people will choose to do things for others. But if I were to consider this matter, I would rather do things for others than for the people I like, for my relatives and friends. If you consider you from my perspective, then I would let you choose to do things for yourself, because in this way you will not be hurt. I don't want the people I love to get hurt. I would rather the people I love be selfish." He smiled slightly after listening, and asked me what I thought. I thought about it and said, "I think if I were to give up my seat on the bus, then I might do things for others. When I am not very uncomfortable or not very tired, I would take the initiative to give up my seat to the elderly and to those with disabilities who need help. But if I accompany an elderly person out or my parents out, and they also need seats, I would rather quarrel with those people and let them sit first. In any case, I have to choose what is important and what is not." Zhou Chuyuan asked me what kind of world I want? I've been talking about this for so long, regarding the identity of a cultivator, but I actually prefer to be an ordinary person. Nothing major is forcing us forward, and no old men want to kill us. Those people won't compete with us, nor will they compete with us for our existing lives. I might work hard to elevate my position and make my life more meaningful. The people I like can also be around me. They're around me, not to bind me, but because when I'm capable, they can be protected by me. It might seem like a strong choice, but it's really what I feel in my heart. When I relax, I can still help those around me. Curious, I asked Zhou Chuyuan what his interpretation of his parents was. Zhou Chuyuan thought for a while and said: "I may have received less love in my education since I was a child. My parents just don't love each other, so I don't think I will have much love either in my past life, this life, or in the future. I don't think I can get some love there. This is also the main problem that led to my later growth. Why did I become a demon? Why did I have the later thoughts? In fact, they were all responsible. I don't hate them, but I just wonder, if I didn't have these, would I be able to live a better life? If I didn't have these to inspire me, would I still be at the height I am now?" Here I also don't understand whether he is doing it for others or for himself. He said that maybe he started out for others, and also to help others. He wanted to help his family, believing he had to help his mother find love. But he realized that without his mother and father, many things would be impossible. That so-called lover was at best a flower to admire, not use, a decorative ornament, never the backbone of the family. He also told me a vivid memory from his childhood: the constant quarrels at home. Whenever they happened, he would lock himself in his room and not come out, so he wouldn't have to hear his parents' arguments. He'd plug his ears, sometimes read, sometimes listen to music—anything to get past the noise. Later, he became extremely irritated by the noise, sometimes becoming possessed. He felt like countless people were arguing around him, just like his parents did back then, complaining about the injustices they'd suffered. Couldn't he leave? Perhaps his parents knew all along, but they wouldn't. He fantasized about someone who could resolve everything. Would his mother be happy if she returned to her first love? Would his father be happy if he found a happy place, free from the struggle for power? But what he didn't know was that the solution to all these problems could not be solved overnight, nor could all the big problems be solved by these small things. Later, the situation became more and more serious, and Zhou Chuyuan's parents gradually blamed all the quarrels on him and had a strong desire to control him.