sjar Chapter 139 Because of them, she must survive.
Chapter 139 Because of them, she must survive.
"Have you decided yet?"
"Yes."
"But if you still... they might still..."
What if we never meet again?
"This is probably unavoidable."
"Is that so... Then I'll trouble you to erase my existence after everything is over."
"Let them forget that there is a person named Lin Sui in this world."
"..."
In her bizarre dream, Lin Sui felt as if she were sinking into a pool of scalding lava.
The dark red and the gray-blue sky above formed a blurry patch of color, like the pain in her chest that made it hard for her to breathe.
Lin belatedly realized that she had a fever.
The lava surged and boiled, and cold rain fell, causing Lin Sui to curl up in fear.
This feeling was not unfamiliar to her.
The decay of her heart made her body extremely vulnerable.
Illness was nothing new to her.
Over time, she would even quietly immerse herself in this mottled world, comforting herself that death was not scary.
But she would always struggle to wake up.
She wasn't afraid of death, but every time she hovered on the brink of death, she had a strange intuition that there was something she hadn't finished.
She thought about it for a long time, and all she could think of was her adoptive mother's rough hands.
When she was feeling unwell and unable to sleep, her mother would hold her in her arms, gently rock her, and softly sing her lullabies.
Then, while she was fast asleep, he would secretly wipe away his tears and cry.
"Is Mom too selfish? But if Sui Sui is gone, Mom can't live either."
So even though she was abandoned by her adoptive father, she was determined to find her way home.
The night before she was abandoned, she dreamed that her mother died on the road searching for her.
Yes, she has had similar precognitive dreams more than once.
But her mother still died because of her.
She hasn't changed anything.
She thought of Lao Mo's always smiling face and his half-serious, half-joking threats.
"I've emptied my coffin savings, so you have to live a good life to take care of me in my old age and see me off when I die. Otherwise, even if you become a ghost, I'll still make you work as my ghost child laborer."
So she continued to eke out a living.
Until today, she finally understands what she has to accomplish.
This is also the reason why she has to wake up now.
Even though she may still be unable to change anything.
Lin Sui groped around and found the soft flesh on her arm.
She has always been ruthless with herself, so she always uses this method to keep herself awake.
"Lin Sui!"
My wrist was grabbed.
Lin Sui opened her eyes groggily.
She saw a pair of scarlet, fiery eyes.
It's Lu Xiang.
No, not just Lu Xiang.
There are also Tangxi, Yuchinian, Sixingran, Liye...
If you were to ask her why she insisted on living on after her mother and Lao Mo died,
She only had one answer.
because of them.
……
Lin Sui's high fever completely subsided two days later.
These past two days, everyone has been treating the hospital like home.
He once said that if she brought this upon herself, he would never care about her white-bearded old Chinese medicine doctor again. The moment she regained her senses, he spoke to her in a sarcastic and cold tone.
"These young people think that because I've taken care of her and made her as good as a normal person, they really think they're old and don't respect me, this old man."
Lin Sui kept his eyes down and his mind at ease, quickly forcing a smile: "No, no, old man... no, you will always live in my heart."
The old Chinese medicine doctor: "..." Did he really think he was dead?
He sneered, "What are you afraid of? You're practically a corpse, so you're just ignoring what I said?"
Despite his advanced age, the old Chinese medicine doctor still enjoys playing video games and surfing the internet, and his speech always has a youthful tone: "Have I ever told you repeatedly that summer is a high-incidence period for heart disease?"
"You don't take it seriously, fine, but you still dare to venture onto the island?"
"If this happens a few more times, you might as well give up on treatment and just pack up and choose a good burial plot for yourself!"
Lin Sui was now genuinely embarrassed and didn't dare to reply.
The main issue is that she'll likely do more foolish things in the future, and the fact that this incident has become so serious suggests that it's not just a simple case of heart disease.
Seeing the old Chinese medicine doctor still glaring at her, Lin Sui looked away and met Tang Xi's slightly haggard face.
Lin Sui recalled the day she woke up, when Tang Xi was lying by her bedside, holding her hand tightly.
His eyes were almost as red as a rabbit's.
As if afraid that she might harm herself again in her sleep, there were always people guarding her bedside, one on each side, holding her wrists tightly.
The consequence of excessive mental stress is that even someone with boundless energy can't help but yawn incessantly.
Not to mention Tangxi.
Seeing the dark circles under her eyes that even her dark makeup couldn't hide, Lin Sui said in a low voice, "I'm fine now. You should go back and get some rest."
Tangxi kept a straight face and pretended not to hear, as if afraid that she would disappear, and stubbornly held her fingers tightly.
The old Chinese medicine doctor slammed his hand on the table, glaring at her angrily: "You still have the mind to care about others? Are you even listening to me?"
"If you really don't care about your health, I'm not going to care anymore. Do whatever you want, I'm happy to have some peace and quiet!"
He was about to slam the door and leave when Si Xingran playfully hooked his arm around his shoulder: "Don't go, Doctor Xu, this girl's been burned silly. You certainly won't be as silly as her, right?"
The old Chinese medicine doctor: "???" Is that human speech?
Si Xingran didn't care; all he wanted was to keep Lin Sui here until she was fully recovered.
They had already learned from Grandpa Yu that Old Master Xu had been taking care of Lin Sui's illness.
Lin Sui is able to live to this day unharmed thanks to Old Xu.
Thinking of this, Si Xingran gave Yu Cinian a wink.
Yu Cinian readily poured the old Chinese medicine doctor a cup of tea: "Our team leader is ignorant, please bear with him."
Old Xu snorted and took the tea. He didn't make a fuss about leaving, but he still looked displeased.
Lin Sui, the instigator, shrank into the quilt like a quail.
In the end, it was Li Ye who saved her.
He brought in a bowl of steaming white porridge and greeted Old Xu, "The meal is ready."
Looking at Lin Sui, who was standing like an ostrich, he pursed his lips and added, "There's drunken crab, which you like."
Sure enough, upon hearing this, Old Xu couldn't sit still.
"Little Li is pretty good. You've only eaten with me for two days and you already know what I like to eat." He smiled at Li Ye, his eyes crinkling, then turned to Lin Sui, his eyes narrowing in a sneer. "Unlike some people, they're heartless, truly heartless!"
He shook his head and sighed as he walked quickly, disappearing outside the door in the blink of an eye.
Lin Sui breathed a sigh of relief and looked at Li Ye gratefully.
Li Ye didn't look at her, but instead stirred the white porridge in the bowl, then scooped a spoonful and brought it to her lips.
Lin Sui licked his lips, which were practically dry from eating: "Can I ask to eat something else?"
After drinking plain porridge for two days in a row, she almost forgot what real gourmet food tasted like.
"What would you like to eat?" Li Ye's expression remained indifferent as always, revealing no emotion.
Lin Sui's gaze drifted to the crab that Old Xu was gnawing on outside the door.
She knew that drunken crab contained a certain amount of alcohol, and she couldn't drink alcohol, but she thought that eating a little bit shouldn't be a big problem.
Lu Xiang smiled brightly: "Would you like another bowl of instant noodles?"
"Is that okay?" Lin Sui's eyes lit up, but she still asked calmly.
Lu Xiang's fists clenched so tightly they cracked: "What...do you...say?"
Lin Sui: "...Actually, plain porridge is pretty good too."
Fortunately, the others were very kind this time and stayed by her bedside to drink the bland porridge with her.
However, Si Xingran secretly buried a little crab roe under the white porridge, and didn't forget to complain: "Was this porridge cooked by Bing Datou today? I'm telling you, you need to improve your skills, otherwise the chef will take your place sooner or later... Hmm!"
Before he could finish speaking, Li Ye ruthlessly interrupted him with a steamed dumpling stuffed into his mouth: "Shut up, you brat."
Tang Xi seemed to have been reminded of something. While drinking her porridge, she secretly pondered where the porridge needed improvement. She wanted to extract its essence and quietly amaze everyone.
Lin Sui silently watched them, no different from before, and the anxiety she had felt since waking up quietly subsided.
It's a pity she put it down too early.
As soon as he finished his bowl of porridge, Yu Cinian chuckled and said, "Squad leader, shouldn't you give us an explanation?"
Lin Sui: "?"
"You don't actually think they're just joking with you and that this is all over, do you?" Yu Cinian raised an eyebrow, his face beaming with a smile, but his eyes were dark.
As soon as he finished speaking, Si Xingran, who had been arguing at which grain of rice was not cooked properly, stopped his incessant chatter. Finally, Li Ye, who had a moment's peace, tossed aside the spoon he had broken.
Lu Xiang put down the melon she was eating, while Tang Xi, who hadn't actually tasted anything, stared intently at her.
Lin Sui fell silent.
As expected, there was no escaping it.
Lin Sui sighed, "What will you do if you really suffer a terrible death because of me?"
"Who cares about that?" Lu Xiang said with a dark face.
Lin Sui humbly asked, "Then what do you care about?"
"To change all of this," Li Ye said coldly, his eyes fixed on her, "what price will be paid?"