sjar Chapter 106 Stop busying yourself, look at me
Chapter 106 Stop busying yourself, look at me
The streets gradually became familiar; the old place was her university.
She went to university, while her second brother had already started working. She studied English as a teacher.
She only left home to live on campus during college, and could only go home on Fridays, and she had to ask her counselor for leave each time.
He couldn't get used to the school food and couldn't sleep well.
After finishing his work, her second brother would bring her food every night at eight o'clock and chat with her for a while.
She would also time it perfectly, leaving the study room and waiting at the agreed-upon location for a late-night snack.
Throughout her entire freshman year, her second brother accompanied her every day, shuttling between home and the teachers' college.
It was at that time that she, in her naivety, first understood her feelings for her second brother.
She knew very well that her feelings for her eldest and second eldest brothers were different.
Both are gestures of patting someone's head, but the eldest brother's action makes her happy, while the second brother's action, along with her happiness, also carries a hint of nervousness and caution.
She would even overthink things: Was her hair oily? Did it smell? Would her second brother find her repulsive?
After realizing her feelings, she indulged herself for a while, letting her affection run rampant.
Later, she felt that her affections were a desecration of her second brother, who was as handsome and elegant as a banished immortal.
She repeatedly succumbed to her second brother's concern, and time and again regretted her actions.
She was like a drowning person, trying to save herself each time, but failing time and time again, only to surface again and again, struggling repeatedly...
I always tell myself to control my emotions, but I always fail.
She loved her second brother's smile, the upturned corners of his lips when he spoke gently, and especially the doting look in his eyes when he looked at her.
All the beautiful bubbles and the bittersweet emotions shattered completely after Fu Wantang's glass of water.
Her unrequited love was like a balloon floating in the air.
"Boom~"
Fu Wantang had completely exposed her; everything happened so suddenly that she was caught off guard.
She hated Fu Wantang for drugging her, but she actually hated herself even more.
That unworthy heart always beats for my second brother.
It was as if her second brother was magnetized; whenever he appeared, her heart would pound against her chest as if it wanted to burst out of her chest.
For example, right now, he's wearing a black down jacket, and just seeing him standing there makes her heart race.
An Jiaren had clearly seen Leng Shize, but her car did not stop.
Under the cover of night, she drove to the other side of the school.
An Jiaren parked the car; there were still twenty minutes until the agreed-upon 8 PM.
She didn't get out of the car; she remained seated in the car, surrounded by complete silence.
She could clearly hear her heartbeat and felt the dryness in her throat, desperately needing some water to relieve it.
On days when they don't see each other, she can resist the urge to look at any news about him.
Even when she occasionally encounters articles related to Leng Shize in English reading comprehension questions, she can remain calm and composed.
When they met again after twenty-three years, she suddenly became timid.
She wasn't sure if she would lose control and blurt out everything.
An Jiaren stared blankly ahead, her eyes glazed over.
Time slipped away little by little as the tension in my heart grew.
The time has finally come when we must face it.
She pushed open the car door and got out, but the moment she closed the door and turned around, she froze on the spot, her breath catching in her throat.
In the freezing night, a person stood under the dim streetlights.
He stood upright, his back straight as a pine tree, and the streetlights cast a soft glow on him.
When she looked at him, a smile appeared on his face.
His refined and upright character was concretely manifested in him.
I wonder how long he stood there?
An Jiaren forced a smile, "Second...Second Brother, what are you doing here?"
Leng Shi stepped forward and said, "I saw your car coming."
The streetlights were dim around him; how could he possibly see that she was the one driving the car?
"What?" An Jiaren instinctively backed away, wanting to run away.
But she quickly realized her escapist behavior and immediately stopped, standing still and waiting for him to come over.
"University faculty and students are all on holiday, and there are no residential areas around, so who would come here for no reason?"
Leng Shize stood in front of her, and she only reached his shoulder.
But this is just right, because she doesn't have to lie under her second brother's watchful eye, making it less likely for him to see through her lie.
An Jiaren understood.
The situation was urgent, and this was the only place she could think of that was related to her second brother. She had overlooked the fact that all the students had gone home for winter break.
The surroundings were desolate and cold. The two of them stood out all the more in that environment.
The surveillance cameras captured them all along the way.
If my second brother wants to investigate something, she only has one car, so it's not good for her to hide in traffic and cause confusion.
On New Year's Eve, not many shops were open, as everyone was busy with family reunions, but there were still some shops that remained open.
"Let's go down the mountain and find a place to get a drink."
"Is it convenient?" Leng Shi probed with ulterior motives.
An Jiaren didn't understand the implication in his words and pretended to be calm, smiling as she said, "There's nothing inconvenient about it."
The two got into the car, and An Jiaren drove.
Compared to An Jiaren's forced composure, Leng Shi appeared particularly calm.
Leng Shi sat in the passenger seat, his body slightly turned to the side, his gaze fixed on An Jiaren.
Faced with such intense gazes, An Jiaren only dared to look straight ahead.
She was afraid that if she met his gaze, she wouldn't be able to stand up for herself.
After descending the small hill and crossing a three-lane bridge, you reach the city center, where there are now cars and people on the streets.
While waiting for the green light, An Jiaren took out her phone to check it, and then rummaged through her bag for tissues to wipe her hands.
She was so busy that she didn't even realize it herself.
Leng Shi didn't expose her, his gaze calm.
Unable to continue the charade, An Jiaren found a tea house nearby.
Upon entering the store, I booked a small tea room to have some hot tea and snacks.
The two had just taken off their coats and sat down when Leng Shi suddenly asked, "Jiaren, why don't you dare look at me?"
An Jiaren raised her eyes, and to prove that she had seen it, looked at the person opposite her, "Second Brother, I was driving just now."
Leng Shi laughed, "Jiaren, you can almost be said to have grown up under my care. I know you too well."
With her pretense about to be exposed, An Jiaren interrupted him with a helpless expression, "I really am driving. I can't do two things at the same time, you know that."
“What I mean is, I’ve never used my intelligence to analyze you, but I’ve been pondering this for twenty-three years, and I think I know what you’re thinking.” Leng Shi then forcefully steered the conversation back on track.
An Jiaren didn't respond to him. She poured water and warmed the cup, preparing to brew tea. "Chenpi white tea or Jiuqu Hongmei?"
Leng Shi glanced at the white porcelain covered bowl beside him and said, "Nine-Bend Red Plum."
After replying to her, he said, "I was just on a business trip back then. I left you a note saying that if anything happened, I should wait for you to come back. It should be back in a month at the earliest. Why did you disappear when I came back?"
"Really? I didn't notice." As soon as she finished speaking, with a "snap," the flame of the match flickered, illuminating her smooth cheek.
She lit the incense sticks she had prepared, and wisps of fragrance drifted into the air with the thin smoke.
"Leng Jiaren, stop what you're doing and look at me."
Leng Shize's voice was serious, and the anger he was trying so hard to suppress seemed like it was about to burst out from the bottom of his heart at any moment.
"Your behavior today tells me that you haven't let go."
An Jiaren's beautiful eyebrows twitched, and she shook her head in denial, "No, you will always be my second brother."
"We've slept together, how can you call yourself my brother?"